Dear Anorexia,<\/p>\n
You weren\u2019t expecting this letter from me were you?<\/p>\n
To be honest, I\u2019m not sure how to tell you this, but I\u2019ve finally decided to part ways with you (again) – but let\u2019s make it long term this time.<\/p>\n
You see\u2026<\/p>\n
You made me isolate myself from everyone \u2013 promising me that sticking to my \u2018food rules\u2019, restricting, and working out would lead to happiness. That, the lower the figure on the scale, the closer to happiness I would be right? NO! Anorexia you\u2019re a liar. That isolation from the world led me to becoming even more miserable. The more miserable I got, the more I turned to you, Anorexia.<\/p>\n
Do you know how much you\u2019ve taken away from me ever since I met you? All the experiences I could\u2019ve had, the relationships and memories I could\u2019ve formed. Not only have you taken away my mind, body and happiness \u2013 but you\u2019ve also taken away the happiness of those who I love the most.<\/p>\n
Anorexia you\u2019re clingy\u2026and kind of obsessive. These obsessive ways of yours made me swirl out of control. Those countless hours spent making up excuses to avoid food, obsessively counting each and every calorie, and planning each meal to avoid next\u2026those hours I could\u2019ve spent with my family, or with my friends instead. Those moments I could\u2019ve spent living life!<\/p>\n
All this time I thought you were my friend! But now I realise that you were my downfall. You made me feel like I was in control because you knew, that was what I needed to feel \u2013 control. But in reality, you were the one controlling me \u2013 in your own little world. I was dying in your world, Anorexia.<\/p>\n
Hair loss, dizzy spells, slow heart rate, malnutrition\u2026and just moments away from organ failure \u2013 all this time you were just trying to kill me weren\u2019t you?!<\/p>\n
Am I mad at you?<\/p>\n
Yes. A whole lot actually. But\u2026yet Anorexia, I do not hate you. Sure, you nearly destroyed my life, and stole the happiness of both myself and those around me. But if I hadn\u2019t met you, maybe I wouldn\u2019t be the person I am now.<\/p>\n
I know you\u2019re confused aren\u2019t you Anorexia?<\/p>\n
I\u2019m slowly regaining my life, but with a greater purpose this time. You changed me \u2013 for the better. As I walk my own recovery road, I\u2019m ready to help others with their own recovery journey, ready to raise awareness. Because of you I see the world differently now.<\/p>\n
I want to experience life – living and relishing every moment! But most importantly, I\u2019ve come to learn that the most important battles we face, are our own internal battles. Just because these battles cannot be seen, does not make them irrelevant.<\/p>\n
After getting to know you, Anorexia, my heart has grown. You taught me to be a fighter. Now I\u2019m not afraid to speak up for those in need, or offer friendship to those who have none. You taught me that a life worth living, is a life worth fighting for \u2013 and that fears are there to be overcome.<\/p>\n
So despite all the pain you put me through, I\u2019m now learning that life is indeed beautiful \u2013 and I\u2019m slowly repainting all the colours in my once black and white world. Thank you for that.<\/p>\n
But even though I\u2019m breaking up with you\u2026I know you and I will never really part ways \u2013 especially now during my early stages of recovery. It will never be a clean break. There are still days when you and I are one \u2013 when the disordered thoughts take control of my mind again.<\/p>\n
I do hope you\u2019ll start visiting less and less in the future though. Maybe those daily \u2018visits\u2019 will become weekly, then monthly\u2026and hopefully even yearly. But at the end of the day, we both know we\u2019ll still continue seeing each other from time to time. Anorexia there will always be a part of you within me. Maybe not in my head, but definitely in my heart.<\/p>\n
Anorexia you\u2019ve changed my life. Now watch me change my own life and the lives of others. Couldn\u2019t have done it without you!<\/p>\n
Sincerely, <\/strong><\/span> Dear Anorexia, You weren\u2019t expecting this letter from me were you? To be honest, I\u2019m not sure how to tell you this, but I\u2019ve finally decided to part ways with you (again) – but let\u2019s make it long term this time. You see\u2026 You made me isolate myself from everyone \u2013 promising me that sticking […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":48980,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[183,186,10],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18302"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18302"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18302\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/48980"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18302"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18302"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/scaccmm.sarawakmethodist.org\/new\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18302"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
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